you are allowed to terminate toxic relationships
you are allowed to walk away from people who hurt you
you are allowed to be angry and selfish and unforgiving
you don’t owe anyone an explanation for taking care of yourself
Having a mental disorder makes you see the world in a different way
You notice things normal people don’t
Like the faint scars on people’s arms
The emptiness in their eyes
The way they smile with their mouths but not with their eyes
The anxiousness they feel when having to eat in front of others
Just little things most would look over
but you notice
Because they’re just like you
Sometimes you need to remind yourself that you were the one who carried you through the heartache. You are the one who sits with the cold body on the shower floor, and picks it up. You are the one who feeds it, who clothes it, who tucks it into bed, and you should be proud of that. Having the strength to take care of yourself when everyone around you is trying to bleed you dry, that is the strongest thing in the universe.
Yayoi Kusama’s “Fireflies on the Water” light installation at the Whitney Museum, 2012. Photos taken by Gabrielle Plucknette and are owned by the New York Times.
(Source: The New York Times)